since parting ways with my sexy beau in march, i have had the key to 10 places in which to lay my weary head, and unpack my worn bags. 10 beds in 5 months.
i have had to negotiate the smoking, liquor and recycling vagaries in 4 provinces.
and i'm now on my 4th phone number (3rd area code) of the year!!
...no wonder i sometimes feel so exhausted!!
but now the wind has blown west, and i find my feet landed on vancouver soil. this time, i even think it's for real: i'm actually looking for work and a home. the time to hide from reality has passed, and i'm ready to start living again!
i'm ready for ebulient banter with friends, old and new. i'm ready for festivals and art galleries. i'm ready for anonymity. ...and standing out from the crowd.
small time life was interesting. (for the two tiny months i experienced it!) some of it was GREAT, namely: i'm well started on a play i'm very excited about, and did some great work on my poems. even submitted some stuff! so that was very, very excellent. but i'm a city girl. i love the plethoraness of it all! i love the ceaseless din and whir of life. i love pubs with walls of exotic fish...
so then, there's one more month of summer, and i am alive in the city!
click. click. click.
there's no place like home.
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So does this all mean that now you will settle down for a while and maybe get a life once again, or are you off to do great things for society once again?
Why BC, why not NS or Montreal? ED
well ED, i hope to settle down AND do great things for society! (grin) and why vancouver? short answer: friends. people i love and trust and feel alive with. i guess i was just way overdue for a real proper friend fix...
: )
Ouch! there's a blow to the Toronto 'friends'.
Welcome back to da wack n' wet coast, you wicked (and wonderful) wayfaring woman you!
Cheers
Woxo
oh christ on a stick. i guess i just have to accept that no matter what i say, somebody somewhere is inevitably going to assume the worst of me, and try to make me feel like a bitch for something i've written.
sigh. well, i ask for it hunh? like i say to west coasters: don't move to a rain forest and complain about the rain...
anyway.
so ok, i will accept that the "overdue for a real proper friend fix" might have sounded like a harsh insult to toronto friends. particularly if you're imagining i went from toronto to vancouver with that idea in mind: "man, people here suck, i want to be around people i love." something like that.
but if i've neglected to make that clear to strangers on this site, i hope at least i've made as much clear to my friends here, there, and everywhere. (the people i love and who love me and who actually matter.)
the comment was actually in response to my having spent about 2 months all alone in the middle of nowhere, with nobody at all to really connect with. NOT BECAUSE THERE WEREN'T WONDERFUL PEOPLE THERE TOO! (jesus, this paranoia bullshit is a real fucking drag...) i didn't make any close ties in the middle of nowhere because 1) i was there to heal my wounded little soul, and needed the alone-time and 2) i knew i'd be leaving, and it's easier to leave acquaintances than friends.
but that said, the fact is there *is* a difference between my connection to my toronto friends and my vancouver ones. i love my toronto friends and whoever you are, you must not be one of them because they know i love them, and i know they love me. i don't love them less or more than my vancouver friends. but it's different. i've known my vancouver friends for about 10 more years, and they are now like family. there's a history there that can be really comforting and grounding. a perspective that just can't compare with friends i've known for one or two years. and i gotta tell you, it's really hitting the spot right now.
so toronto friends, and you know who you are: i love you and i already can't wait to see you again and i think of you and you have a special place in my life and heart and you always will.
and vancouver friends, thank you for being so loving and helpful and patient and kind and fun.
and middle-of-nowhere acquaintances: you were wonderful and it would have broken my heart just too much to really fall in love with y'all. it's not you baby, it's me.
ok? can we all just relax, have a shot of tequila and spin the damned bottle already?
___
ps: thanks, oh wiggest of men! : )
ladykaen you sexy socialite - Just wondering if you would be interested in meeting the same sex, for a wonderful night out and some once in a lifetime experience?
giggle - so is my blog now a personal ad? funny.
i'm cautiously intrigued. feel free to email me at my blog contact (up there by my pic somewhere.) or to save you the searchng: kaen@myway.com
It's On its way! Check your e-mail Gorgeous
Hi Girl,
I sent you an e-mail as per your request, I am yet to hear back from you? Are you no longer intrigued?
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